My Wife Told Me She Was Working Late Every Friday for Two Years but Her Coworker Just Told Me the Truth

There’s this guy Gary at Claire’s office. I’ve met him maybe four times. Nice guy, talks a lot, the kind of person who fills silences at parties because he can’t stand them. Claire’s company had this barbecue thing in September and I went because she asked me to and I didn’t have a reason to say no.

I ended up near the drinks table with Gary and we were talking about, I think commute times or something, and he goes “Claire’s lucky, she’s always one of the first ones out on Fridays. Must be nice getting home early.” Real casual. Like it was nothing.

And I just stood there holding a paper plate with two hot dogs on it and tried to keep my face normal.

Claire doesn’t come home early on Fridays. She gets home at 9 or sometimes after 10. She told me two years ago that they started doing a Friday review meeting that runs late and I never once questioned it because why would I. She’s in marketing, I don’t know what marketing meetings look like, maybe they do run until 9.

I said something to Gary, I don’t even remember what, probably something dumb like “yeah she’s efficient” and then I stood there for I don’t know how long just smiling and eating a hot dog while my brain was doing something completely different.

I should back up. Me and Claire have been together for 20 years, married 17. I’m a high school history teacher. She does marketing for some company, I honestly couldn’t explain what she does in specific terms even though she’s told me probably a hundred times. We have two kids, Tyler who’s 16 and Jessie who just turned 14. We live in a house that we both know is too small but we can’t afford to move so we don’t talk about it.

Our marriage is, I don’t know how to describe it. Was. Is. It’s fine. That’s the word I keep using. It’s fine. We don’t fight much. We don’t really do much either. We watch TV after the kids go to bed and one of us falls asleep on the couch and the other one puts a blanket on them and that’s kind of the whole thing. I think at some point around year 12 or 13 we just stopped trying to make it anything more than functional and neither of us said anything about it.

That sounds worse than it is. Or maybe it doesn’t. I genuinely don’t know anymore.

So after the barbecue I did something I’m not proud of. I went through Claire’s phone while she was in the shower on Sunday. Found a bunch of texts to a number I didn’t recognize. No name saved, just the number. The texts were short, stuff like “confirmed for Friday 5:30” and “see you then.” I screenshot them and put the phone back and spent the rest of the weekend feeling sick.

I decided I was going to follow her. I know. I know how that sounds. I told myself I was going to ask her first but when Friday came around I just couldn’t. I lied and said I had a faculty meeting, she didn’t even look at me when I told her, just said “okay” while scrolling her phone.

I left the house at 4:45 and parked down the block.

She came out around 5:20 in different clothes than earlier. I followed her. And I need to say, following someone in a car is way harder than it looks in movies. I almost rear-ended someone at a red light because I was watching her car instead of the road and I missed a highway exit and had to loop back and by the time I found her again I was sweating through my shirt. Stressful. Very stressful.

She drove to a town called Millbrook. I’ve been through it maybe two or three times in my life, it’s about 40 minutes from us. She pulled into a parking lot behind a small building, an office-looking thing, two stories, not very big. And she walked in like she’d done it a million times.

I parked across the street and just sat there.

I sat in that car for almost two hours. I had already decided what was happening. In my head I’d already figured out the guy’s name, it was going to be some real estate broker or dentist or something, and I was planning the conversation I’d have with Claire when I got home, and I was thinking about which one of us would get which furniture and whether Tyler would blame me or her.

I had the whole divorce mapped out in a parking lot in Millbrook. I was very thorough about it. I even thought about the dog.

She came out around 7:30 and she was on the phone and she was, I don’t know, she was smiling. This specific smile where her whole face changes. I used to see it a lot when we were dating. I haven’t seen it aimed at me in a long time.

I followed her home. Got there about ten minutes after her. She was making tea. She asked about my meeting and I said it ran long and she said “that sucks” and we watched TV. Normal Friday.

I didn’t say anything for almost a week. Part of me actually thought about just letting the whole thing go. Like maybe I could just not know. But I couldn’t stop thinking about it and I wasn’t sleeping great and on Tuesday I looked up the building in Millbrook online. It was a shared office space. The directory listed a bunch of businesses, a chiropractor, some financial planning company, a tax preparer, something called “mindful transitions life coaching” which I thought was suspicious, and a therapist named Dr. Pauline Wren.

Wednesday night. Kids are in their rooms. Me and Claire eating dinner. I’m staring at my plate and I just go, “I know you leave work at 5 on Fridays.”

That was all I said. Not the speech I’d planned. Just that one sentence.

She put her fork down. And the thing that really got me, she wasn’t surprised. She looked like she’d been waiting for this. Like she was almost relieved.

And then she goes, “I’ve been seeing a therapist.” And she paused. And she said, “For almost two years.”

I didn’t say anything. She kept going.

“I didn’t tell you because I knew you’d want to fix it. You’d want us to go together. You’d want to make it a project. And I needed it to be just mine.”

We sat there for a long time. I honestly don’t know how long. At some point I said, and I’m not proud of this either, I said “so what, I’m the problem and you need a doctor to figure out how bad?” And it came out mean. Meaner than I meant it. She started crying and I felt like garbage and I also felt like she didn’t get to cry when she’s the one who lied for two years but I also knew that was an ugly thought so I just sat there.

She told me she’d been going to this therapist to figure out what she wanted. Whether she wanted to stay in the marriage. Whether she was happy. Whether she thought it could get better. She said she loved me but she wasn’t sure loving me was the same as wanting to be married to me and I have to tell you that sentence knocked the wind out of me more than if she’d said she was sleeping with someone. Because there’s no villain in that. There’s no bad guy. It’s just, she’s not sure. Two years of Fridays in Millbrook and she’s still not sure.

We didn’t resolve anything that night. We didn’t hug it out or come to some big understanding. She went to bed around midnight and I stayed up watching nature documentaries on the couch until like 3 am. Not because they’re calming, just because I didn’t want to get in the bed.

Oh and those texts I found on her phone? Those were appointment confirmations from the therapist’s office. I spent an entire week being angry about automated appointment reminders. So that was great.

We’re doing couples therapy now. Not in Millbrook, somewhere closer. It’s been three sessions and honestly it’s mostly just a lady asking us questions while we sit on a couch that’s too soft and try not to look at each other. I don’t know if it’s helping. Claire says she thinks it is. I say okay.

She’s still going to her own therapist on Fridays. Except now she tells me before she leaves. She’ll say “heading out” and I’ll say “okay” and that’s it. It’s weird. It’s just weird.

Tyler asked me last weekend why I was being quiet. I said I was just tired. He goes “you’re always tired now” and then he went to his room. Jessie came downstairs about an hour later and asked me and Claire point blank if we were getting divorced. Claire said no. I said no. Jessie looked at both of us and goes “okay but you’re being weird” and went back upstairs.

My buddy Rob from school noticed something’s off. He asked me at lunch if everything was alright and I said yeah and he said okay and then we just ate in silence for a while. That was kind of nice actually.

I think about this one thing a lot. When Claire said “I needed it to be just mine.” That’s the part I keep coming back to. Because 17 years of marriage and there’s a whole part of her Friday life that’s just hers and I had no idea. And I’m not supposed to be mad about that because it’s therapy and therapy is good and she’s dealing with her stuff. But she lied to me every Friday for two years. Both of those things are true at the same time and I don’t know what to do with that.

Benny ate another shoe. My left running shoe this time. Second one this month. I think he can sense the tension in the house and is expressing it through footwear destruction. Or he just likes shoes. It’s hard to say with him.

I still see Gary at school pickup sometimes. He smiles and waves. I wave back.

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